Its my birthday today and whilst in a pandemic trying to enjoy it. Home schooling 3 dc has been a challenge and dh was off today and already getting annoyed. He ended up shouting at me reducing me to tears and storming off. He then blamed me getting older when I said he always seem to find a way to get my upset on most birthdays. I ended up in a carpark crying my eyes out then going home to sleep for a bit.
I don't feel like I want to process this relationship further however with this pandemic its hard. I work part time but some evenings so would be difficult with the kids if I leave. We been married almost 7 years together for almost 11, we rent and have no savings. I'm wondering what I need to do in preparation to leave. I have family but my df has terminal cancer and my dm is his carer.