So just after Xmas I decided to join an Alpha course. I had been going to play groups at the local church weekly and was kind of cornered while there and asked if I would like to join the next group. I thought meh, why not! I will ask all the questions I wanted answering, why the suffering etc if there was a god. I didn’t believe at all, even though I wanted too my brain told me to stop being stupid.
Fast forward a lot of weeks, each week Iv been abit more “well if there is a god, then why doesn’t he send a sign?!”. Everyone on the course and at church seemed so happy, and I wanted that!
Last week I was reading the bible for the first time, trying to get some research in ;), when my son came down stairs. He had borrowed an action bible from the church and had been reading it. He was telling me what he had learnt and he said
“If you ask your father for bread, does he give you a stone”.
When he went back upstairs I got back to the bible and on the first line on the next page was the exact quote!!!
Yesterday was the alpha away day. It was all about the Holy Spirit which I had never even really heard of 🙈.
At the end they asked if they could come round and prey for you and I said yes.
I sat down and the put their hands on me and preyed.
And I started to sob uncontrollably. I can’t explain what happend. I felt like I was being hugged and told how much I was loved. I haven’t had that in 10 years since my mum died.
I couldn’t stop crying, but I didn’t know why.
Has anyone had this?! I feel so different. I can’t explain it but wtf!