Just a hello really.....

[kizzie]

I always read the posts here (bought myself some rose quartz the other day) but just dont feel up to meditating at the minute.

Just thought Id say hello because I know you all know how 'this' feels.

For those of you who havent already been bored to tears by my story. Ive spent the last 2 years in 'withdrawal hell' trying to get off seroxat. Finally had a nightmare switch to prozac 7 months ago and finally stopped SSRI's 5 weeks ago.

Still taking a small dose of valium.

The last two weeks have been really terrible - worse even than my original anxiety based PND. Im really terrified now of losing my mind if that makes any sense.

I dont know now what is withdrawal and what is just me with medication. (i didnt have any depression/panic before PND)

ANyway - sorry this has ended up so long but just wanted to say hello.

ive decided to start St Johns wort today - any experience?
Kizziex

Hello Kizzie

I know how you feel though my depression is not due to PND... I kind of wish it was, but thats another story!

I took seroxat but was allergic to it and before and after that have had prozac, which I was fine with - i'd give my right arm for some right now but unable to take any at the moment.

I've also taken St Johns Wort in the past, I can't remember for how long but it would have been for at least a few months. I found that they kicked in a bit later than prozac but i found them just as effective really with not so many of the side effects. They're gentler to wean off too imo only. One thing to bear in mind if you're ttc is that it can affect fertility according to what i've read on the net! hth

Just checking - is it ok to take with valium? I'm sure you've probably checked this out already but just thought I'd ask as some natural products aren't always compatible with some medications.

Kizzie I dont really have anything to add except a hug. FOr me pnd did get better but I had a year on prozac and came off slowly over six months. I hope St Johns Wort works for you and you feel a little better soon it is an awful feeling.

Hi - thankyou for replying!

delgirl - thanks for your positive story about st johns wort -im so terrified of taking anything now after my AD experience.
(Ive checked about the valium.)

Thanks again
Kizziex

Sorry Delgirl - meant to say - hope you're able to take something soon!!
kizziex

Thanks, but unfortunately not, I'm due to start my 5th round of fertility treatment in 3 weeks time so am just going to have cope with it somehow. There are days when I just think I can't but hopefully the treatment will keep me focused, at least for a while. I hope you soon feel better too.

Good Luck Delgirl. I had ICSI and various rounds of fertility treatment.
Fingers and everything else crossed for you!
Kizzex

Thanks kizzie - was it successful for you?

Hi delgirl - yes it was in the end.
(Twin boys)
Have you any other children? Do you think thats what your depression is linked to - its such a difficult thing to go through.
I really hope it all goes well for you. I'll be thinking of you.
Kizziex
PS. Started the St Johns Wort yday. Had a really strange sensation of quickening heart rate (not like the normal panic attacks I get) but just going to give it some time. At least with this - if I have any probs at least i can hopefully just stop it - unlike the seroxat.

Hi Kizzie - how are you today?

Unfortunately I don't have any children. I've had 4 lots of treatment so far with 2 mc's. 1 at 11 weeks and 1 at just under 5 which was only 6 weeks ago. I lost my husband also 2 years ago last week so all in all a pretty c*ap time of it. Starting again in 3 weeks if I can muster up the strength. Think I'm going to book myself a holiday before then to try and cheer myself up a bit. I've got 2 more go's and then that's it. In a way, even though I desperately want children, It'll be a blessing when it's all over really. Anyway, sorry, was hoping to cheer you up in this thread, it's your thread after all.

Changing the subject - I think you have to wean yourself of St John's wort too.

DelGirl - Here is the link about reflexology

here

Hi Del Girl - Im so so sorry youve got all that to cope with. I really hope it works for you - but I do understand that feeling of thinking at least you would be able to get on with life if you werent having any more treatments. It just takes over your whole life.
Do you think you're ready for another go if last mc was only 6 weeks ago? Only you know the answer.
Have you been in contact with CHILD (the association for infertility). You can find them on the web. I joined and found some of the inof really useful. Also they have a team of volunteers who you can ring who have been through similar things.

(Re. St Johns Wort - been incredibly dizzy and spaced out today. Didnt think you got side effects like that with it.....made me feel even worse. Guess Ive just got to stick it out for a while.)

Anyway - hope you manage to get a rest over next couple of weeks.
Kizziex

Hi Kizzie , checking in too see how you feel today. Remember that even homeopathic remedies are quite powerful so its probably the same as other drugs, it will take a while to settle down. Have you thought of seeing a homeopath to really tailor you the best things to take for your personality and depression type?? Where are you ?? As a friend has someone amazing she can reccomend. Im glad your off the seroxat though , as Glaxo are being taken to court over it; for it not being stated that it increases the chance of suicide in teenagers under 18. Very scary. I just wouldnt touch it now. Glad I didnt take it agin this time for my PND.

Thanks for the link Papillon - think I'm definately going to treat myself to some reflexology maybe once a week while I'm having my treatment. If nothing else it's relaxing! Or perhaps once a fortnight and have a hydrotherepy bath too!

Hi Kizzie - hope you're feeling a bit better today. I'm feeling a bit brighter today (thank goodness) Maybe it is to do with the anniversary of my husband's death last week on top of the m/c plus I've had AF this week too. I certainly can't feel much worse than I have of late and just feeling good about feeling 'ok' if that makes sense.

Just read my post and it sounds like I feel good about the anniversary etc - which I don't, obviously