...but not really sure where to begin. I was sort of raised catholic, c of e mum (lapsed) Irish catholic dad. Went to mass a few times as a kid and quite liked it, requested communion etc andwas quite happy to identify as catholic. Then got packed off to catholic secondary school and it put me right off. I had never met such an unchristian bunch of people in my life, five years of belittlement, dry preachy mass in the chapel in school and strict rules and severe punishment for breaking them with little consideration or leeway given (worst example was the head of middle school confiscating from a boy in my year, his dead mother's wedding ring, after she died a quite prolonged death and had sought special permission from the head/ Monseigneur etc with the condition that it be kept under his shirt to keep it concealed, it had slipped out while he was playing football at lunch time, I didn't know him that well but i saw her take it from him and he just looked broken).
My parents divorced and I lived primarily with my mum who is quite spiritual but not religious (now training to be a yoga teacher with much of the crunchiness that come with that)
So for a long time I denounced my faith, wanted nothing to do with the church and thought it was all just crusty old men and twee or cantankerous old women. But lately I don't know what exactly has changed, but I want very much to go to confession and maybe just talk to a priest about my faith, (I think part of it .might be because I've been in touch recently with an old teacher from college not school who I now count as a friend and who is also catholic and has much the same reservations as me,) I want to live a good life and be a good person, but I feel like I have this constant low level guilt always going on. Sorry for the long ramble, I guess I'm just a bit confused atm
TL:Dr- was raised catholic, went to catholic school and hated it, it put me right off, now I want to go back but don't know where to begin