I feel a bit bonkers posting this, but here goes...
A few weeks ago I was at the park with my son when I looked down at the same moment that a white feather landed on my boot. It was tiny, soft, and downy. Immediately I thought of my first pregnancy, which ended in a miscarriage at 9 weeks. The day I found the feather was 4 years to the day that my miscarriage started. Another odd thought popped into my head at the same moment. I just thought, "Oh, I must be pregnant again, and that's the baby I lost coming back."
That's not a normal thought process for me and I tried to shake it off, although I kept the feather in my pocket and when I got home I put it underneath the little figurine I bought to remember my first pregnancy.
A few days later, I got a familiar metallic taste in my mouth; a few other symptoms followed, and so I took a pregnancy test. It was positive.
Since then I've had a steady stream of these little white feathers, and I cannot stop thinking about my first pregnancy, and what they might mean. Its not that I've ever forgotten my first pregnancy of course every now and then I wonder what might have been and I've always thought of that pregnancy as my first child rather than just a cluster of cells but now it's rarely from my thoughts.
Has anyone... had this before? I mean specifically relating to pregnancy? I'm not a very spiritual person, although many of the women on my mum's side of the family are, and I feel very odd about it.