I try to follow htb's "Bible in One Year". Today's reading is Psalm 143. Here's the commentary on it - and at the bottom there's even a prayer! Sorry to hear that you too suffered an abusive relationship.
We need God’s guidance. You have the potential to change the events of history for good. But there are many challenges to be faced.
David was depressed. He was in ‘a black hole’ – a ‘dungeon’. ‘I sat there in despair, my spirit draining away, my heart heavy, like lead’ (v.4, MSG). How do we begin to get ourselves out of a situation like this?
Remember the good things
David chose to think about the positive. ‘I remembered the old days, went over all you’ve done, pondered the ways you’ve worked’ (v.5, MSG).
Keep worshipping
Worship can be an oasis in difficult times. David says that he ‘stretched out my hands to you, as thirsty for you as a desert thirsty for rain’ (v.6, MSG).
Cry out to God for help
He prays, ‘Hurry with your answer, God! I’m nearly at the end of my rope. Don’t turn away; don’t ignore me!’ (v.7, MSG).
Listen for God’s guidance
Year after year I have written next to the verse: ‘Show me the way I should go’ (v.8a), a list of areas in which I have desperately needed God’s guidance. It is so encouraging to look back and see the way he has guided me – sometimes in ways beyond anything I could have asked or even imagined.
This psalm is once again my prayer for today:
‘O Lord, hear my prayer ... my soul thirsts for you like a parched land ... Show me the way I should go ... for I hide myself in you … For your name’s sake, O Lord ... bring me out of trouble.’