Hi Yorkie, long time no chat, another essay finished another late hr but no drunk rants tonight, I'm maturer now I am! In answer to your op, What do you believe heaven to be like? Well first let me say as a good young Irish Coleen, my perception of heaven was big white fluffy clouds, harpists, halos etc but as time went on as time will do, I had the misfortune/probably biggest fortune of my life!
to be in the same boat at the holy mother, except her conception was glorified whereas mine was villified, funnily enough it twas about then that I broke away from the church, thank God!...No pun intended! Sh*t I'm rambling but to cut to the chase my mum died suddenly 7yrs ago and I mean suddenly!
Well tbh Yorkie, I don't know what it's like to loose a spouse but from the perspective of loosing my darling mum. I will say this, I persoanally/and that's just me! gave up on the idea of what heaven would be like.
For me today what carries me through the dark days and the even darker days back then, was that although her physical body was gone, her spirit was very much present.
In my darkest hrs, I looked at myself indeed my children and would and still see resemblances, I notice little charachter quirks in myself and my dc to see and know that she very much lives in spirit
And I'm by no way encouraging you to follow suit but somwtimes, not always but just somtimes when it feels right, I can't feel close to her at her grave so I sometimes put on an artist she really liked, Queen being one of them, look out to the beautiful sky above, raise a glass and say, this ones for you mum.