Does anyone else feel lost?

[kindafeellost]

Hi I'm new to this internet forum stuff so pls be easy with me. I'm just feeling lost, have been for a while, its like I don't know what I'm doing. It has gotten worse over the past few months puts its been affecting me for a good few years. I'm constantly arguing with myself should I do what I want to do or should I do what I'm meant to do? Im at a stage now where I just don't do anything so I don't have to choose, I literally just stay at home doing nothing. I hate myself for being like this because its not fair on the kids. I don't know what I should do, I don't have friends and I've been to the doctors but its like I'm asking for help but no one hears me. Any advice would be much appreciated. Thanks.

Is there something you'd like to do?

I think that the right thing to do can be what you want too. Do you know what you want is wrong? If you do know it is wrong then of course don't do it, but just because you enjoy doing something doesn't make it wrong, if you see what I mean.

I think you need to think in terms if how what you do affects others and staying in all the time is probably not the best idea. Once you start getting out, even just to the park, library or shops you will probably start to feel better and it can be something interesting for your children.

I feel lost and I love it, Don't think I could take being on a path or whatever.

IN situations such as these, kindafeellost - I'd say go with the thing that you feel deeply about in your heart. Even if it's a tiny insignificant thing like enjoying a hot chocolate in quiet time away from your family.
Ask yourself, when it comes to that time of death for you - how will you feel summing up the things you did vs the things you didn't do when you had the chance, or time?
If we have a finite time to experience life here, best to make it in alignment with what we truly FEEL at the time. Go with your inner heart feelings.

I feel lost too. I don't really trust what's in my heart because I'm coming through depression and what's in my heart is "stay in bed"!i know that doing better leads to feeling better allegedly....