i suffer from depression, anxiety, have low self esteme no confidence in myself. but strangely enough i do think positive! i know it sounds crazy but im a grateful person. lots of gratitude for what i have in my life re home, kids and money and having a healthy able body and kids.
i believe in angels, life after death etc... im quite spiritual in my thoughts. ive read 'the secret' on positive think and all that.
how ever, every time i walk out my front door lately (over the last month) i feel like ive been thrown into the path of god! i know it sounds loony. but i bump into people (4 so far) who seem to want to convert me, want me to read the bible, go to church, pray..... but its not me. im not saying i dont believe in it all, not that i understand what its all about either 
i feel im spirtual enough with out having to pray, goin to church or reading the bible. i just dont want to.
i went over the park yesterday and a lady asked why i have the word 'believe' tattooed on me. its just a positive reminder to myself. then i got an earhole full of religious belief, stuff about god calling me. she wants to met up with me and bring her bible. i told her i had another woman also do the same thing the other week! to be honest ive avoided the park for a while as i only want to spend some peaceful time with my daugther and not have it drummed into me.
i have nothing against christians or people who go to church (i went to sunday school as a child) and im grateful for their only trying to express their beliefs, but i feel they're wasting their time on me. but i dont have the heart to say, leave me alone? or am i knocking back opportunities or paths that im meant to be taking. really confused right now!