I have Doreen Virtue's Goddess pack and her Angel pack as well now, but it's the Goddess pack I feel most drawn to. I'm not sure what I feel about the existence of angels.
I read a lovely quote on Pinterest today, although I don't know where it comes from, that says 'everything you need will come to you at the perfect time', and I really, truly believe this. Although I can be very impatient, and impetuous at times, I have learned to be still and listen and the path is always, always shown to me clearly when I'm in the right place to see and hear it.
I'm aware that this is me wanting someone else to experience the joy my path has brought me, but may I tentatively suggest that you try to do the same - don't do, just be. The answers will fall into your lap, I'm tempted to promise you!
The more I 'sought' things, the more they remained just out of my reach. As soon as I accepted that I would be shown my path, and that I just needed to learn to 'be' where I am right now, things just kept appearing. I was invited out of the blue to attend a moon group (Shamanic women's meeting at the time of the full moon, held by a Medicine Woman), which was a real eye-opener to me, and a test of my ability to open my mind and heart to other ideas.
Then a friend gave me a piece of rose quartz and invited me to try her Oracle cards, which showed me amazing insight. Again, this was for no particular reason. In February, my own cards said that in three months time, I would do something to do with singing. I noted it and then forgot about it. Two months later another friend sent me a flyer for the Honouring the Divine Feminine chanting workshop, which I felt really drawn to. I went along, loved it, felt full and joyous, and came home and remembered that the cards had told me that singing would become an important part of my life.
And just when I want to start honouring the wheel of the year with my family, I hear about a local woman who is starting to hold events for families doing just that.
The best insight comes through moments of stillness. I really recommend learning either yoga (especially the pranayama) or meditation, to bring that stillness into your life. And do things to ground yourself - go and stand barefoot in the garden and just 'be' - feel the earth beneath your feet without judgement, just feel it. Feel the air and sun on your skin - or drizzle, or whatever - without judgement. The more you do this, the more you'll find you're connecting with whatever will bring you the guidance you need - but don't seek it, let it find you.
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