Dropinthe, why not take Huggy up on her offer
Most important I feel is that you actively seek within yourself, a reading in any shape or form is just information until you make it active in your life. Put it as top of your list as things to do! A year of personal development and creativity. I say creativity because I believe that manifesting how you feel is very good for growth and learning. Life is a mirror. Look at how other people approach their life, here or in RL - how do they respond, benefit, falter. Just like a bike you have to get on, wobble abit and then try again and persist and something does happen.
Reading is good, if you are not keen to buy books, there are also alot of sites where you could read. What would you like to learn more and develop more in your life?
There are also alot of spiritual forums online that could suit your individual growth taste buds. Me and others can suggest ones, and this place is its own spiritual forum - you just have to post and discuss & so on... I have found it really amazing growthwise to write online - it is more than just thoughts and for me has actualised inner growth and confidence in me more than any book as done. That is how it works for me, what I write is for me and for others.
Creative power is wonderful in decision making, like when a person finds themselves in the midst of terrible choices with low self confidence. That inner knowledge and manifestation will help them through the lean times. I hope you don´t mind (((Glitterfairy))), but I feel you are a wonderful example and mentor of how to face and make decisions despite the pain and confusion of the NOW situation in your life. It makes change less drawn out and growth and opportunity will knock louder at her door because of it, because she is actively aware of herself and her capability to heal, grow and be true to herself. Am thinking of you today Glitter and I feel that in this moment you are healed because you are sitting in your emotions with your eyes wide open and your hand on your heart. That is why you have been able to help others here on MN who are on the brink and in my dream.
What alot of writing!... If you are still with me Dropinthe and not wandering about the Yurt in a daze, let us know if you want any info re websites, or books, or herbal cigarettes. I feed your Yak btw, it is your Yak isn´t it?