There's a brilliant bit at the start of Les Miserables which begins "Sin if you must, but be upright." It talks about the frailty of people, and about living the best that you can. We can't all be as clean as the saints are, but we can try to remember to try.
When I sing the hymns, they remind me what I want to be and should aim at, not necessarily what I am.
Though I cry so much (well, I weep quietly when the children aren't looking) singing "take all I start and spoil; each hopeful dream" because that is exactly me all over!
It's fine not to like the social aspect of church (in my opinion). I personally like that bit, but don't like the hypocrisy, particularly as I can see the hypocrisy in myself. I know that Catholicism has huge aspects of that I simply don't agree with. But it still feels like 'home'. My feeling is that as long as I don't lie to the community and allow them to accept me for who I am, that's OK.
If you want to spend more time bringing God into your life, it might be worth scheduling meditation, prayer and reading into your daily life. Just 5 or 10 minutes at a time. There are also websites that will send you a daily reading and a daily gospel which can give you more structure.
Finally, for me the church aspect of religion fulfils the 'one or more people gathered together in my name' aspect of Christianity. It's a nice 'extra' to trying to live as Jesus lived. As and when you gain confidence, you might discuss with a friend occasionally having a prayer meeting. Nothing special, just tea, buns, a couple of prayers and conversation. You might not be the only person in your area who wants something like this.