he's getting on a bit and am worried he may have something nasty wrong.
i am also worried about how much it is goin to cost. not that if he has something treatable i wouldn't sell my soul/kids/body to pay for treatment but it's yet another expense i could do without.
and i don't want to have to have him go through loads of treatment if he isn't going to be happy.
and i'm not looking forward to any difficult decisions i may have to make.
of course all this is 'what if' but i'm still worried.