....and I feel stupid for feeling so upset.
He was just over 2, I didn't think that was very old as the pet shops say 2 -4, but the vet said he's never seen a 4 year old and 2 was about right.
He was just lying there last night, we couldn't do much for him but he obviously wasn't at all right, was very cold and still and breathing very fast. He made it through the night, though, so we optimistically took him to the vet, who said he thought he was going into organ failure as he was hypothemic and it would be better to have him put to sleep than prolong it as he wasn't going to make it. I asked if definitely nothing could be done and he said no. So we agreed and left him there.
Now I can't stop crying, I keep thinking I should have just left him in his cage instead of taking him and leaving him to die in a strange place. Also we did have one once who got ill and cold once and we nursed him on a hot water bottle and he survived, so I keep wondering what if we had tried harder9although he was younger). I know I only did what I thought best at the time, and he could have had a long drawn out death which would have been worse.
But I am still in such a state and then I think I must be a mad woman, getting so upset over a gerbil.I just wonder if I should have done things differently and I think this is why I keep crying.