Over-reaction

[desperatedaysareover]

Stupid post really but my little
black cat died a few hours ago. Actually, a couple of days ago. Just heard tonight, someone brought her to the vet, they found her dead in their garden. Unmarked, looked like she was asleep. Don't know what caused it.

I know outdoor cats live daily with massive risk but it's hit me like a ton of shit. Have a lot of other stuff going on atm so I suspect that can't be helping. Just keep thinking about her when she was 5 m.o she'd just been spayed and she was so miserable in her suit she slept in the crook of my neck, she's purr and purr. The very first day she arrived she curled up and snoozed on my leg like she'd always known me. She was a good footballer and sang like Cilla Black.

I am finding it really hard to take, she was so pretty and affectionate and not even two. Just so heart-broken. I know it's not rational, all pets die, and I've said all the right things to the kids but fuck it's really hard. I can't even remember the last time I saw her, I've been away from home for weeks dealing with another matter and I just feel such guilt. I just want to stroke her again and say cheerio,

I'm so sorry that your lovely cat has died.
It must have been such a shock to you.

It's awful when a pet goes like this - they're family.

And please don't think it's an overreaction. I've felt terrible every time one of my cats has died.

Oh OP, I welled up just reading your post. You’re not overreacting at all - our creatures mean so much, their innocence and love is so authentic and it matters. They matter. Be very kind to yourself - you will feel better and come through but I hear you.

❤️ In honour of your dear little black cat, who knew how loved she was.

It's not an over reaction. It's horrible when they die, especially if you feel you didn't get a chance to say goodbye. Her life may have been short, but it sounds like she was very happy and content. Also try to take comfort that it seems like it was quick so she wouldn't have known anything about it.

Hugs to you and your family.x

I still sometimes cry over my boy I lost 16 months ago, despite his sister still being here and her new toy boy (for company for her), both in good health. It really can be heart breaking.

Do feel free to join us over on the Litter Tray, even though you currently have a cat shaped hole in your life don't think you won't be welcome.

I definitely still cry over the cats I've lost over the years.

That's completely normal, and please don't think otherwise, OP.

It's not an overreaction at all, they hold a very special place in your heart. It's really hard to lose them, they offer such a unique and meaningful kind of love and companionship.

I'm so sorry for your loss