Hello, not sure how to word this but thought someone here might help. My 10 year old cat passed away 2 days ago after being unwell for a few months, it was fairly sudden and I am really struggling. He became unwell a few months ago and we were told different things at first worms and then maybe infection and sought relevant treatments changed diet etc, I've had him since he was a baby we rescued him as a kitten from a toxic household and he was quite literally my best friend, I keep having panic attacks and I'm really struggling, I've had deaths family wise over the last few years during covid and another pet passed away last year but he was my first proper pet companion and the pain is indescribable, how do people get through this seriously? I feel like Im struggling with the guilt of not being able to be there during his final moments. Am I just being dramatic or should I see our community nurse about any further support ( I have a sensory disability and usually struggle to show emotion but I literally can't stop crying) thankyou