Our cat is 13 and we’ve had her since she was 7 weeks old. She was the tiny runt of the litter.
She had heart failure which I didn’t realise until it was too late and she had a funny turn, she then had to get the fluid drained and started meds which worked for a while, but she’s just taken a turn for the worst again and the fluid is back, the vet said it’s very end stage heart failure and the kindest thing now is to PTS so I’ve booked it in for Friday.
I feel incredibly guilty and sad, guilty because I didn’t realise she was ill sooner and she might have a different outcome, guilt because I feel like I’m ending her life on my choice. And very sad because I can’t imagine the house without her :( I think I also feel guilty because she’s still eating and drinking and purring and I’m struggling to make sense of it all.