Hi readers. I feel like I'm having the worst week of my life. Took my nearly 19 year old cat to the vet last Monday and was told that due to her laboured breathing and rapid heart rate, she'd be better off being put down. He insisted we do it right then and there but without any emotional preparation, I just couldn't. Walked out with my Molly and took her back home, watched her stuff her face while I sat on the sofa in tears, wondering whether I'm the worst person in the world.
She came into my life when I was 9 years old. I'm now 27. I can't remember life without her. She provided companionship to a lonely only child who, after receiving her, never craved to have siblings again! The bond is immensely strong.
Yesterday I took her to the vets again for a second opinion. Again, I was told she should really be PTS. They offered to drain the fluid from her lungs caused by the CHF in an attempt to help her breathe a little better and I just paid for it. They drained as much as they could but told me that her prognosis is bad and I am just prolonging the inevitable. I was so close to letting her go yesterday while she was already sedated. I fell apart in the veterinary room and she just looked at me and I felt such guilt. Part of me felt like she was asking me to take her home and get her out of there so she can die in comfort in her house, the other part of me was wondering if she's telling me she's done.
I'm just broken. So heartbroken. So full of guilt. Has anyone's cat died naturally from CHF, was it god awful?