Ive had the worst news,my poor baby cat has been run over and killed at just 6 months old. I am truly heartbroken. I cant stop thinking about him,missing him and blaming myself for letting him out in the first place! The road where it happened is not a busy road at all and my street is a dead end dirt track alley road so cars cant even fot on my street, (not a street as such) and is set back from the main road where is happened. i never let my cats out all night because of their age and i just worry. But Sox ran out about 11 and i couldn't get him back in. That was the last time i saw him. Then i got that awful dreaded phone call that someone had found him and scanned his chip leading them to me 😭😔 i must point out that Sox was my first ever cat. My first ever cat love that made me go on to get 2 more. He made my life better, my mental health better and he was an absolutely amazing cat. He was black with white paws and he had a little kink in his tail from birth. He was a rescue, but he most definitely recued me. I was blessed to have him for his short life and i hope he knew how much i loved him. He did not deserve this. I've never lost a cat before or any pet and im really struggling.
As mentioned i have 2 other young cats. One just 2 weeks younger than Sox and one 4 weeks younger. Im absolutely terrified of letting them out now and my anxiety is through the roof. They always play in the garden, the gardens backing onto ours, and in the big bush behind our garden wall as there is always birds flying about. But what if they go onto the road like Sox? Its not a busy road at all but it happens obviously. should i not let them out now?is it mean? Teddy cries at the door to go out specially at night time. He doesnt like the litter tray anymore. Do i move house? Do i rehome them? I dont want to do that at all they are my little boys but i keep thinking maybe if i hadnt of adopted Sox he would still be alive now. I feel like im to blame. Am i? I know alot of people think theyre just cats but theyre not their my family. Ive been through loss before. I loss my sister to suicide and i blamed myself then too. Am i being over dramatic? I just need some guidance and wisdom? Please 😔