What would you do?

[Weelis02]

I lost my beautiful cat on Wednesday, she was knocked down by a car and I found her several hours later with the help of my local area fb page. It must of happened during the night and I found her in the morning. I'm absolutely devastated and the house feels so lonely and quiet. She had only turned 1 last week. If I had just kept her in that night then she would still be here with me :( the guilt is unbelievable.
A few people have said to me when I'm ready I could get another kitten/cat. Whilst I have looked online at rescue centres, I can't get over the fact that I could lose another poor cat to that road. It's not the busiest road but it's 1 of the main roads that go through my village. It's a 30mph road but a lot go too fast.
Am I being selfish for even considering another kitten/cat in the future? I couldn't keep a cat indoors as I don't feel it's fair as they naturally like to go out and explore.
I'm just so heartbroken and don't know what to do about anything really.
I would really appreciate your opinions

I am so sorry for your loss. I don’t think you are being selfish at all for considering another cat. Unfortunately accidents do happen.

You can get programmable cat flaps that won’t let them out at night. It won’t totally eliminate the risk but it might reduce your anxiety.

There is a little kitten out there who would be very lucky to be taken care of by you. Please don’t feel guilty, I am sure you took amazing care of him.

Thank you for your kind reply, don't feel I deserve it though! X

I’m so sorry about your cat This is something that worries me with ours! Personally I would get another cat (or two!) because she chances of it happening again on a 30mph road are slim. Please try not to feel guilty, you did the best thing by letting them outside to explore. Unfortunately accidents do happen and it’s heartbreaking

Thank you for your kind words. Got her ashes today so feeling miserable x

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Some rescue cats are not able to go outside and need an indoor only home. Or could you cat proof your garden in the future.

Thank you. An indoor cat would be an option. Cat proofing the garden wouldn't be as it's a private let