I have many things to say, so sorry in advance.
I'm 18, and for a few years now, I've been feeling weird about my mom.
We live in France, and she is born in Chad, the country. I'm not writing it because I'm not allowed to apparently ?
To give out context, my mother is pretty much entirely dedicated to christianity. But in a weird way. She's not catholic. Back then she got into a so-called "Protestant church" for a while, where it would happen sometimes that the pastor would just make her fall onto the ground by slapping fingers ? That was a weird moment of my life. She eventually realized that something was off and ended up getting out of all this, but after getting baptized in this weird church, so she got re-baptized in a catholic one.
She told me many, many, many times, during her worst moments when her and my father separated, that she felt like burning down in her bed.
A few years ago, she got into Kanguka, another weird thing that she will probably never quit, because it's apparently fixing many problems in her life.
This revolves around a guy called Chris Ndikumana if I recall right, that makes an emission every week with several testimonials of basically his emission working and African people thanking Jesus and Kanguka for fixing many insane problems, like cancer, sterility... Then it always ends in a kind of a prayer when Chris goes absolutely nuts and starts saying many people are getting healed and that he can't quote every disease.
This feels more like a gigantic propaganda to hook up desperate people.*
For many years, again, I hear her sometimes talking very scary gibberish that IS NOT her mother language while praying.
And finally(or not, but I won't talk about everything), she recently fell into the horrible world of TikTok. You and I both know TikTok shows you "what you want to see", and it's been completely working on her. She got into conspiracy theories about Emmanuel Macron's private relationship with Brigitte Macron, she said recently that Napoleon never existed, and she also listens to other Candace Owens bullshit, that is getting her closer and closer to far-right. She listens to entire fucking podcasts about this.
That's the main thing I've been calling out but she won't listen to me, like every consipracy theories paranoiac person.
This has actually been scaring her, and she often talks to me about living the country(I spent my entire life here btw). So she kinda rejects what I want to work in and often tells me to do this or this, because apparently what I'm trying to do isn't safe and valuable in Africa or Idk. Fortunately, she's not trying to force me into anything.
I go to her house every two weeks by the weekends with my little brother and I'm really starting to find it weird to live with her. I remove my headset and I hear gibberish or TikToks about Macron. Recently, she's been trying to rely on me more and more because my brother had enough and decided to cut ties, at least temporarily, while he's beginning to raise his newborn daughter. He lives a 3-hour drive away now, so that means my main source of help isn't close. He told me to focus more about myself, though.
Please tell me what to do.