I understand this is a forum for parents of adult children, but I'm desperate for advice. I have a very supportive husband and two young children, my daughter is 5, and my son is 2.5. They are my world. We went back and forth for 2 years on whether we should have a third child or not. My husband felt complete with 2 but was open. I just always thought I would have 3 so even though 2 has been difficult for me off and on, overall it is great and I couldn't shake the thought of having 3. I have always struggled with mild depression and anxiety so when I was down I'd think 2 is enough, but when things were going well (as they had been for the past 6 months) I felt good about having a third. We decided to try and got pregnant on the first try. At 6 weeks pregnant I started to regret the pregnancy. I fell into a deep depression and had panic attacks. I'm now in therapy and on antidepressants. I haven't stopped thinking about terminating the pregnancy since the panic started. We have the means for a third, we found out it is a boy (which we were hoping for), and my husband is confident we will cope. I feel like I will never be happy again and will regret having a third for the rest of my life. I am running out of time to terminate, but I also fear I would regret a termination long term. I don't care for the newborn or toddler stage, but once they hit 2.5 or 3 I do great. I am an introvert and enjoy alone time and sometimes get overwhelmed with too much noise. My current children play very independently and are overall pretty relaxed. I'm overwhelmed, exhausted, and wondering if I need to terminate so I can focus on my mental health and the family I already have. I guess what I'm asking is has anyone had a planned or unplanned third and felt similar? I know that parenting is difficult at any age, but is my fear of the exhaustion that comes with the newborn and infant stage and then the unknown of what it is like to parent older children a good enough reason to terminate? Am I better off going through with the pregnancy while continuing therapy to work on all the issues that have come up during this pregnancy (my "grass is always greener" outlook, my fear of regret, my struggles with decision making, etc.)? I know this is a very personal situation that is different for each person, but it is helpful for me to hear perspectives.