Sorry, this is a long one...My broken relationship with my 18 year old DD feels likes it's beyond repair and I just feel utterly bereft. She's always had attitude but was generally a happy child. Our relationship has deteriorated throughout her teens to the point she wants nothing to do with me. She swans in and out of the house hardly giving me eye contact, when she does I see such hatred in her eyes. When I try and talk to her she always says "I just have nothing to talk about". From past texting with her I know she wants to have a mum/daughter relationship but just not with me. We've had conversations about trying to repair the problem and only recently I told her I would give her a daily hug just so she knows I love her but when you receive such a cold response it becomes difficult to maintain. We arranged to go to the cinema in the week, which she seemed up for, I even arranged a day off work to go but she cancelled on the day saying she couldn't be bothered to watch a film. She's currently seeing a 28 year old which hasn't helped and now I've accepted the situation she refuses to introduce him. Her dad left us when she was 13, he made himself very ill after he left (functioning alcoholic) and since then he has struggled with his own mental health and maintain a relationship with her and my DS. She's arranged countless times to see him but he always cancels. He hid the drinking well when we were together, they never saw the problem so it didn't affect them growing up, we rowed a lot before he left though. I suggested counselling recently but she flatly refused. It's so uncomfortable living like this, like living with a lodger you wish would move out and I just want to run away. I cry most days because it hurts so much.