Hi everyone, i am hoping for some advice please. My husband told me he wanted to divorce me in Nov 2017. We have been together since 1990 and married August 1994. We have 2 daughters, who are now 19 and nearly 22. I have many health problems, PTSD, anxiety, agoraphobia, severe depression, very low thyroid, lymphedema and borderline personality disorder. The last few years of being in the same house as my husband I was drinking heavily, after my daughters had gone to bed as he just put his headphones on, was on his phone or the computer every night, and ignored me, no conversation and very snappy with me if I dared to interrupt him. I felt he was slipping away. Little did I know. He told out eldest daughter 7 years previously to this he was going to divorce me, i didnt know this until boxing day 2017. I also didn't know that he was having an online affair with a woman for 7 years. I found out, boxing day 2017, he had booked in the August a room for them and iron maiden tickets for Aug 2018. I also didn't know that 3 weeks after he told me he wanted a divorce that he booked a holiday to Canada for February 2018 over Valentine's day to go and see her, while our eldest daughter was in the car. I was told over a few years that i was paranoid when I walked into a room and he and our eldest daughter went silent. In May 2018 I had to move out as that was what he and my daughters wanted. I now live on my own, 5 minutes drive away from our family home where they all still live. They hardly visit me, my eldest daughter has ignored the last 2 mothers day, and this year I turned 50, i know covid is going on, sadly, but not even a card from them. But they still expect me to pay them £50 each per month for food, as they say my husband can't afford it, even though he had booked a flight for 2 weeks to see his girlfriend in May. Please help. I feel very used.