Has anyone else felt so utterly disappointed and ashamed with yourself, that you wish you could scrap everyone's memory (including your own) of how you've conducted yourself recently and start all over again being the serene, calm, authoritative mother you always hoped you could be?
I've started as if I've done something really terrible - I haven't. It's just that I have recently been shrieking at my DCs in a kind of pleading tone - I can hear myself and I don't recognise my own voice! I was so worn out from yesterday's battles that I completely overslept this morning resulting in a hideous rush not to be really late for school. I feel I must have appeared to be in a completely hysterical flap to all those who were unlucky enough to cross my path. I'm overweight and spotty because I eat and pick at my skin when I am stressed. I don't feel like myself (whoever that is these days...) at all. I'm sorry to go on but does anyone of this seem familiar with any of you? Or am I just a total wreck? I'm not sure anymore.