Just had some weird mental moment.

[slightlystressed]

All morning I've been muttering to myself. I cannot cope. I cannot cope. This is doing my head in.

I was trying to get DS1 arms in his jumper and his hand was stuck, DS2 was crying his head off. I just sort of went a bit crazy and started punching the bed, realised I was doing this infront of DS's and all I could do to stop was curl in a ball and put my face in my hands, I probably stayed there about a minute and I was convinced that I had finally lost it.

I pulled myself together and when I looked up DS1 was looking at me really worried showing me his hand was finally through the sleeve. I feel terrible and guilty.

This isn't normal is it?

Are you on your own with the dc's today or can you get a break / freash air / exercise?

Is today a one off or are you getting progressively more stressed?

I sympathise as I'm on my own and usually end up a nervous wreck when I spend a day with my 2 (adorable but mischevious) toddlers.

you sound tired and fed up, not unusual or odd but try and see how you can get help/ a break

it happens make sure you look after yourself

I seem to remember having a couple of these moments with DS as well - I know I ended up sitting huddled on the floor rocking myself and going "I can't do this I can't do this" at least once. DS was quite young at the time though (months rather than years) so probably (hopefully) didn't notice.

Things get on top of you sometimes - it might be due to weather/hormones/outside stresses/DC just being PITA/combination of all or some. The thing is - does it happen more than once? And if so, regularly or only occasionally? If the latter then I wouldn't worry too much - if the former then you might need to chat to someone about it.

Please don't feel guilty - things get on top of all of us sometimes.

Thanks for replying

Been on my own all weekend as DP at stag do. He was working long hours all last week aswel so its been a long week.

I've definitely been getting more stressed, my hair is falling out in clumps, though might be to do with breastfeeding.

We are in the process of selling and buying a new house, which is stressful, I hope things will improve once its all sorted.

I've never had a moment like that before, its like my brain so of disengaged from me I felt I had totally lost controll for those few minutes.

Is there anyone who can take them for a while so that you can have a break?

you are very tired by the sounds of it and the stress isn't going to be helping; plus you are giving away a lot of nutrients in your milk so can I suggest that you take a decent multivit/min if you aren't already doing so? It might at the very least help stop the hair loss (depends on how old DS2 is though as it might be the natural post-pg hair loss).

I took Pregnacare throughout pg and bf'ing to try and maintain my own health.

And what cornsilk said.

They go for a nap soon, and FIL is coming over later while I walk the dogs, so I will get some freshair.

I find more and more days Im wishing the time away till their bedtime, and feel so guilty for it. Like I say I'm hoping things improve when we move.

I do eat fairly healthily but I will get some multivitimins as well. DS2 is 8 months nearly and Im getting a very thin patch wear my fringe starts I don't remember so much hairloss with DS1.

ah, daylight = good . Have a lovely walk with the dogs.

Don't feel guilty - I think we all feel like that at times. This time of year is hard, it'll be easier when it's warm and they can play out.