How do I get myself feeling better

[LadyGaGaGoo]

Sorry name change because regular poster
I have been feeling really down recently because of a succession of events.
I had a miscarriage late last year, then I have left my job and I am trying to sort childcare for my new one.
I feel useless the whole time and terrified I am not doing the best thing for DC. I am not sure about going back to work, and I am terrified of getting the childcare options wrong - I can't find the perfect person to look after DC - yet part of me thinks DC would be better in childcare than being at home with me.
I burst into tears in public the other day and feel so humiliated.
How can I cheer myself up?
PS DH lovely but I think is getting increasingly stressed if I don't buck up my ideas so can't really worry him any more.

It sounds like you have a little post natal depression to me, you need to pop and see your GP, print this off and take it with you if it will help. You have had so much worry and heartache, it may help letting it all out. Your DC need you, they are better off surrounded by your love and warmth, no nursery can give this.

Your GP will be able to help

do you think so? i feel such an idiot even going to see her? and also they wouldn't be able to tell my work or social services or anything would they?

Yes, you should go. You won't be an idiot, just tell her what you have written above, she won't tell anyone, they are there to help you. Post natal depression is really common and nothing to be ashamed of, you've had such a tough time, then having a baby knocks the hormones to bits, anything up to a couple of years after. Having a chat really won't do any harm.

Night.