DS has been away since Monday on a school trip
It is his first time away from us apart from single nights at grandparents or friend houses.
This time it is 4 nights and 5 days away.
I have been worrying about this trip for about a year
He has just had his 10th birthday and is in class 5 {half of class 5 have gone and all of class 6}
Last october we had to choose whether we wanted our child to go in the ballot for the chance to go on the trip, I really didn't want him to go into the ballot but forced myself to let him and he was picked out.
DS hasn't been aware of my nervousness about the trip cos I didn't want my feelings to influence his decision whether he wanted to go. IYSWIM.
I really didn't want him to go and on Monday morning when we had to leave the house I just looked at him and tears streamed down my face
And so he came to hug me and said "I won't go if you don't want me to"
We then hugged and I said that he would have lots of fun with all his friends and that they were probably feeling the same
It was so hard saying goodbye to him Monday Morning.
I could only cope by coming to Wales as well
So I have been alone in a hotel "just in case"
I have been very lonely here but it is better than being over 4 hours away at home.
DH had to stay at home cos of work.
We are not allowed any contact from them apart from a letter.
I have sent him a letter and so did DH and DS has written to us but we haven't recived it yet.
I was going to be allowed to see him today cos they were going to do a very long walk that he couldn't do cos of his hypermobility but they changed it so it is a very short walk so he has gone on it.
I will go back home tomorrow morning and they should be home tomorrow evening.
I just hope he has had fun and hasn't been too homesick
I have heard other parents say that when they come home they are sometimes angry and very emotional
If I don't reply it is cos this hotel internet is rubbish and I keep loosing connection to it
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