This is going to sound poor, poor me I know but my ds (4.5) is going to get a certificate for being such a well behaved boy at assembly tomorrow. His teacher tells me he's brilliant in school.
I'm really pleased to know this and when I go to the assembly tomorrow, I'll be chuffed to see his great behaviour recognised.
But I'll also feel a bit terrible because I know his behaviour at home is absolutely dreadful. I'll feel like it's all a bit phoney because as soon as we get in the car after school, he kicks off about something or it might only happen once we're at home. It's hellish but I've posted loads on this before.
DS is awaiting an appointment with our local mental health services after we went to see a paediatrician. I told the paed about his behaviour and he agreed our boy needs to be assessed even just to give us tips on how to manage his behaviour better rather than 'diagnose' him with something.
So, I wish I could be wholeheartedly enthusiastic about his award tomorrow but it'll be a mixture of pride, guilt and anticipating the next rage after school.