I'm thinking of applying to interrupt my studies

[cupofteaplease]

I am doing my PGCE. I finish on 3rd July so have 2.5 months left. I have 2 girls aged 3 and 22 months and I am pregnant, but scans show baby isn't growing and I am waiting for a scan on Wednesday to tell me whether the pregnancy will continue or the baby has died (see my other post on Miscarriage board for more details as I won't go into that again here)

Since finding out I was pregnant, my mind has been wandering, and since finding out I may be miscarrying, I have lost it completely. I have written my assignments, but I have done nothing for school. I can't face the thought of standing in front of a class and being judged by my new mentor right now.

I want to take a break, spend some time with my children and get my head together over the baby. I know I am 'so close' to the end as everyone keeps informing me, but 10 days seems an eternity right now, never mind 10 weeks. I don't think I can cope, I feel so low. I DO want to finish my course, but maybe after Christmas, or this time next year. I can't face it just now and I won't be doing my best, nor will I be the best teacher for the children in my class, which isn't fair on anyone.

My mentor knows about the pregnancy complications, but said I shouldn't be thinking about suspending my studies just now.

I know everyone will think I am a failure if I stop now, but I've not told anyone about the baby so have no support with what's happening.

Oh you poor thing.

All I can tell you is what happened to a friend who was doing the same course, her DC had a very bad bone break and had to stay at home/hospital for several months. she asked about taking a break and was told that whilst they fully understood her reasons if she took more than a week off she would have to re-do the whole year.

Thanks for replying. My mentor did say it is possible for me to interrupt my studies, but we have not discussed the implications. I assume 'interrupt' means stopping now and recommencing my final teaching practice from the beginning at a later date. I would obviously not want to repeat the year, but if I am forced to carry on or quit and restart I genuinely do not know right now which option I would choose. I am not a strong person at the moment.

If your mentor has said its possible please just check it with the college aswell. My friend was told she had to complete within a certain time or re do the whole year this was with her mentors support and the full support of her school placement.

I fully understand that you only want to focus on your family right now I just think you need to check all the facts before making any decision.

Good luck for your scan on wenesday.

Do you have a "friend" on the course or at school that you could get together with to do some work to keep your mind occupied?

(hope I havent come across cold and uncaring)