Never feels like I'm doing enough

[cupofteaplease]

My childminder's dc were ill today so the dc couldn't go to her today.

So, I packed them into the car, drove to uni (an hour away) and handed in my work by 8.45am. Went to see my tutor. Explained that I was very sorry but would not be able to attend my seminars and lectures today because of having no childcare (dc were right next to me- aged 3 and 20 months) and she just glared at me.

I felt like absolute crap.

Really don't know why I'm doing this sometimes! Of course I do, because I want to be a teacher (doing PGCE), but I feel I can't be a good teacher and a good mum. My children will always come first and this is just not good enough if I want a career.

Grr grr grr again.

Hi! i think that sometimes people just dont undersatnd your situation and that when people like you have a genuine reason for being absent they just dont care.
and other times, the people who you think cant understand just do.

yes youare a mum and that is what you will always be first, when you qualify you will be allowed to take parental leave for such events, however as a student no one seems to get this. can i ask are you a lone parent...as i find that i seem to get told get your partner to look after Ds...but i dont have that.

just keep going and you will do it and provide a better future for your children.