DS is 6.5 months and started with his nanny yesterday. I don't go back to work for 4 weeks but am trying to ease DS into it by leaving him with the nanny a few hours a day to begin with (it's a nanny share with one other family who are already using her FT). I am nervous about leaving DS anyway but both both times I have come to collect him he has been crying. The nanny assured me he had only cried for a few minutes before I got there but it worries me that he's not happy and feels I am abandoning him. Also, when I questioned her about how he had been, she said that he couldn't play independently for very long, wanted to be held a lot, was very difficult to get to sleep, made a fuss about taking a bottle, didn't eat much of his puree and was quite grumpy because underslept! The other baby is so easy - eats, naps, sleeps, plays with no fuss. I know what she is saying about DS is true but I just wonder what I did wrong that he is this way when the other baby is so easy. It didn't help that I mentioned to DH that I was worried and he immediately said it was my fault for holding him all the time and not letting him cry. Sorry this is so rambling, just feel so upset for DS that the nanny has labelled him as difficult and so awful that I have failed him in so way by not being able to sort out his sleep/feeding issues. He is demanding and needs a lot of attention which can be exhausting but most of the time he is a gorgeous, alert and happy baby.