My baby is 9 months, almost 10 months old and she is the most beautiful, adorable, sweet girl. She lights up when she sees me, she has a gorgeous smile and is so clever, I couldn’t love her more if I tried. However, I’m exhausted in every possible way and sometimes find myself wishing the baby stage away. I feel so much guilt because it’s such a precious time and everyone tells me it goes so quickly and to hold on to it, but she refuses to sleep unless on me, she refuses bottles and cups so I have to be at the ready to breastfeed, she throws most of her solids on the floor. For the first time last week I left the house without her, I managed two hours before i got a call she was so upset she was hyperventilating and refusing a bottle. I know people will suggest sleep training, but CIO is not something I’m comfortable with and pick up put down always ends with her in an absolute state. We’ve tried lots of gentle methods. My partner is trying everything he possibly can, but she’s so dependent on me that it’s killing me, she’s also teething right now and learning to crawl, i feel so horrible for wanting to skip to a part where she’s not breastfeeding and can go two hours without me. I guess this is just a rant and I’m looking for support and hope