I’m struggling badly with anger and resentment towards my ex and I honestly don’t know how to move past it. We have children with varying levels of disabilities and he chose to leave. He now has nothing to do with them. He knows I have no family support, no friends nearby, and no real break from caring, but he still walked away and left everything to me.
I genuinely cannot understand how someone can sleep at night knowing the situation they’ve left their children and their ex in. I feel trapped, exhausted, and like my whole life has become caring responsibilities with no escape. Some days I feel more like a prisoner than a person.
I’m also so sick of having to explain to people that he doesn’t see them anymore, or answer awkward questions about where he is and why I’m always alone with them. It’s humiliating and painful every single time.
I’m not even asking whether I’m better off without him, I know relationships end but how do you cope with the sheer anger of being abandoned to carry everything alone? Has anyone else been through this with SN/disabled children? Did the resentment ever ease? It’s not even earlier days, we broke up years ago but I still feel quite angry. I struggle to even take my children out alone and today was just awful.