Why do I find it so hard to be in the moment and appreciate my kids?

[yoursurroundedbyarmedbastards]

I love my dds I really do they're the light of my life and I don't know what I'd do without them. When dd1 is at school I miss her. DH and I have been talking about putting dd2 (21m) in nursery a couple of morning a week because she could do with the stimulation. But I'm thinking no I'll miss her to much.

So why oh why when I with my children do I find it so hard to enjoy them in the here and now. I'm always shouting at them, telling them off, groaning because yet another nose needs wiping, moaning I can't 5 minutes of peace, and I say at least 3 times a day "the kids are doing my bloody head in." I know how fast time goes, it feels like only yesterday dd1 was a baby and she's 5 and in school. I don't give them the right attention, I want to enjoy their childhood not wish it away (as I find myself constantly doing ). I count down the minutes til bedtime and thats when I get in from the school run.

Then when they're in bed I'm thinking about them and how gorgeous they are. Until dd1 wakes up from a nightmare or dd2 wakes up wanting a bottle. Dd2 is my last baby we're not having anymore, I want to enjoy her last bit of babyhood. I constantly feel guilty because I just seem to always snap at dd1 and just mutter um thats good darling when she shows me something. I vow to be more appreciative of them when I'm with them and then 5 minutes into the chaos of a normal day and it goes out the window.

I find I can't just sit and play with them I'm always thinking about what else I could be doing. I think dd1 is starting to notice too. Any tips how do other mums stay sane and enjoy their kids?

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Yep I think people feel that way, I want another baby but then think you don't appreciate the ones you've got, daft cow aren't i

Oh harman glad I'm not the only one then.

I must have namechanged and written this in my sleep