Burnt out with 5 and 2 year olds and losing my temper

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I’m finding my own children so frustrating and it’s pushing me over the edge.

They are five and two and my younger child in particular has just been awful at the moment, not that this excuses me losing it of course. But I’m absolutely burnt out. Everything is a battle: shoes, coat, leaving the house, food (this is a massive one, it’s no exaggeration to say she’s maybe eaten six meals this week.)

I’ve ended up ranting in blind rage, saying things I really don’t mean, hitting myself and throwing things around. I know it’s totally the wrong way to deal with it all but it’s like this pressure just builds and builds and then comes flying out and I can’t stop. I’m so upset with myself; it’s happened three times today alone

That is not normal. See your gp. Ask for some help.
Look at nhs cbt online

Or call 111 chose mental health support

Oh my gosh....

This sounds hard.
Really hard.

Or can you hire a babysitter to get a break or take a day off work or something to get a but of space and step back???

Or Can you do a bit of a reset tomorrow?
Like an "easy" day where you say yes to anything thats not actually going to harm anyone....

So just feed them what thry like let them wear a fleece onesie /spider man costume out to the park...
Eg. Today I took the kids to the park thry were going crazy about getting on the fucking bus. Crying and moaning (2 and 4) so on the way back thry saw another bus and started and i thought do you know what.... why the fuck not...?
so they happily waited 10 mins for a bus (our house is a 7 min walk)
We then took it 2 stops... and walked another 5 to get home and they were just jazzed. Like thrilled altogether....

My dh was a miserable grumpface about it but thsts another story.....

@SalmonOnFinnCrisp possibly but conflict seems to start over nothing, it’s the conflict rather than what I’ve asked for if that makes sense.

So this morning she had a tantrum because I tried to put on her coat. But then when I said OK … leave it then she had a tantrum because she wanted her coat. This went on for a good while.

She doesn’t eat anything. Today she had half a banana and an ice cream. That’s IT.

Fruit and dairy. It is fine. Stay calm do a food diary speak to hv about her diet.
Is there another parent around?