I feel like this maybe is quite a taboo subject and not been able to find something I can relate too, my son is 9 months old and I am struggling, I don’t enjoy this baby stage, it’s brutal, exhausting, emotional taxing, and just damn hard, now I’m not saying I didn’t know what I was signing up for , but I don’t think anything can truly prepare you for how hard it is and how little patience you have, I’m trying all the avenues I’m seeking therapy, I went to the doctors, I really all the self helps, I’m doing everything I can to make myself feel better about the situation, but I just don’t enjoy it, and I’m in the stage where going into some part time work seems like the only relief that may break this cycle and he’s so young and the guilt is undeniable, but I’m not gonna lie and say that I am coping well with adapting to motherhood, there is just no time left with the exhaustion, and demands to be soft and I eat myself up for it, looking back now I think maybe I’m to selfish. I find it so so difficult and honestly some days look forward to him getting older and getting out of this baby/toddler stage. I would find some comfort on anyone who has maybe experienced similar