hi
i feel sick writing this
i just realised the cow&gate powder i’ve been using is the one that was recalled like a month ago. it was in the news at the time but i was still pregnant and bought loads in advance and didn’t see anything else about it after
i came home monday with him and was using the ready made bottles at first so didn’t even think about the powder. started the powder yesterday properly and then today someone mentioned the recall again and i checked the batch and it’s the same one
he’s 5 days old
he seems fine. he’s feeding ok, no sickness, no temperature. nappies normal. but he’s been awake since about 11:45 this morning and it’s now 3:15 and he just will not sleep. i know newborns sleep loads so that can’t be right?
he’s super alert anyway like he held his head up at 12 hours old and the midwives were shocked. so he is just quite aware. but this feels like too long to be awake. i thought he’d fall asleep in the pram when we went for a walk but he didn’t he was just wide awake looking around
my ex is here with me because my mum is ill in hospital and he keeps saying he’s fine and i’m overthinking it. but what if i’ve done something awful
i feel so stupid for not checking properly. i just assumed because it was bought from a normal supermarket it would be fine
would he show signs straight away if something was wrong? would he be sick or floppy or something?
i don’t know if i should ring 111 or the midwives or if i’m being dramatic. he literally looks fine just awake and staring at me
i can’t stop shaking
has anyone else done this or am i the worst mum ever already
please be honest but not horrible i’m already beating myself up
he’s just lying here looking at me like nothing’s wrong and i don’t know if that’s good or bad