Breastfeeding toddler on holiday

[IFeelLikeACow247]

I have a 13 month old, we're on holiday visiting my family. It's been 2 weeks and while DS seems to love his grandparents and having fun, he's breastfeeding constantly!! I'm so touched out. He feeds 7-8 times a day at least and will now only fall asleep for both naps and bedtime if I BF. And if he wakes in the night, he wants a boob again.

I need a vent and some solidarity, I was happy continuing BF as it was only a morning and evening/ bedtime thing at home. I feel like a cow. It's horrible and now I can't wait to wean him off, I feel like the holiday has ruined BF for me entirely. We're cosleeping which we never did at home as it's the only way he will sleep through the night but it's adding to my stress.

I've had to hand him over and leave the room a couple of times as I couldn't stand being touched again. FML.

He seems to love being away and seeing his grandparents, but the rest of his behaviour says he's finding it overstimulating and stressful and he needs you. He's feeding to ground himself and reconnect. He's not doing it to wind you up. Take a break, but also try to empathise with him.

Oh I know, I know, trust me, and it's why I continue to do it and why we're cosleeping. I know he needs me. But FML I really am just a cow right now. I'm regretting this holiday so much. In all other respects, it's a great holiday and it's nice to see family (we live abroad) but I'm not enjoying a single minute of it. All I can think about is weaning him when I get home.