Hi all, new to this no judgement please , I just need advice i'm from the UK and i'm a mum of 3 children, all my kids have different dads, my eldest is in contact with his dad, we are on good terms now, he cheated when we were together but we have managed to focus on co-parenting our son however he is spoilt at his dads as they have more money and time than i do, my middle child has undiagnosed Autism and ADHD (awaiting the assessments) he is not in contact with his dad as his dad doesnt want to be as well as there was DV involved hence me leaving that relationship. Then there's my daughter, me and her dad are engaged and living together, wedding planned for next summer, he treats all the children the same and is the perfect partner, father and male role model for my boys. I work with young children, i'm an early years practitioner in a nursery. I am struggling mentally with the work i do, i work full time (40 hours a week) and trying to plan a wedding, being a mum to my 3 beautiful babies, my fiance also works full time and i'm never having a free moment from kids and its taking its toll on my mental health, in January this year i had to take sick leave from my old job for 2 weeks due to having a mental breakdown and im worried im heading in that direction again, i dont want to have to take time off work again because this job is fairly new started in April this year and also i know how it looks, i also dont want to let my colleagues down. I just dont know what i can do, ive got nobody who can babysit for me to take some me time, my middle child is attached to me and his outbursts are becoming frequent and worse, ive tried finding triggers but it feels like anything and everything can be a trigger. i feel like a wearing thin.