My daughter is a very bright, beautiful and confident individual. She makes me proud everyday, but I'm really struggling for her to listen and acknowledge boundaries. I hate yelling and to be honest she doesn't listen when I raise my voice. This evening I totally lost it and screamed in her face, I asked her repeatedly to stop what she was doing and she found it hilarious. We all have the lurgy at the moment my youngest is teething so the past two nights I have had very little sleep along with being the parent that does all the nights shift and mornings. The past 3 years I can't say I have had many nights of undisturbed sleep, as both children have co-sleeped with me because it's the easiest way for us all to get some rest. If I'm being totally honest I am running on reserves and I'm I am very resentful to my partner at the moment he is a great Dad (he does every bath time and we both do put down, he also settles them until 23.00), but he totally undermines me when I'm trying to educate our daughter to stop doing things when asked.
I am totally ashamed with losing my temper and this will make me feel awful for a good time, my partner was very quick to come in and tell me I was totally out of order, which made me lose my temper more, I feel like I am a totally unfit parent