So I broke up with my daughter’s dad about 5 weeks ago.
shes 14 months old.
a bit of background
we never lived together tried for a bit when she was born. Together 4 years.
first year very happy I have 3 other children older not his.
really and truly I should never have brought my daughter into this relationship I should have needed it 3 years ago.
but I didn’t I kept trying.
we were constantly arguing, bickering.
I was always the one in the wrong rarely got an apology I’ve lost lots of friends (I’m not sure why maybe cause I didn’t make effort with them) I’ve put 3 stone on.
lost myself really.
baby came along she’s amazing- I did everything every feed/bath/bed “I’ve done it before” and “I needed the bonding time” he would say…
anyway fast forward to now I’ve had enough I’m showing my elder girls that this is acceptable- so no … I’m done.
i ended it . He was staying with a family member of mine was disgustingly horrible to them lost his place to stay. Didn’t bring baby back one day I had to go collect her after an hour or aguing on the phone. He’s been horrible to me bombaridjng me with messages etc … I’ve done the first mediation myself so waiting for that.. he’s completely disregarded my elder daughters had a great relationship with them now nothing …. So He sees her twice a week- not for long at all. Wants 50/50 … basically she is going through a faze that she cries hysterically if I leave to go in the kitchen, to the toilet anything she never used to do this she’s goes to a childminder is very confident for her age. Do you think it’s a faze normal or she’s picked up on all this 😭
I try to wait until she’s gone to bed to express any emotion I’m feeling that day as I’m so mad at him but also I feel sad my relationship has been a lie from things I’ve found out/seen etc … and that he clearly never cared about me …
my head is an Aladdin's cave right now …