I hate myself and I hate my life, prepared for a lot of judgement but unless you are in this situation you will not understand how hard it is, my daughter is autistic and hasn’t been to school for 3 years, no mainstreams will take her as they can’t meet needs but LA won’t give a special school (currently going through tribunal) she has high needs and I’m exhausted, haven’t had a second away from her in 3 years, I have other kids in school that I have to take to school in the morning, she’s always refused to come and that’s always been fine it’s 20 mins and she’s been fine whilst I’ve taken them, until today. She had a meltdown and left the house, I came home and found about 5 people on my door step telling me she had ran out the house, they called the police on me who are now doing a safe gauging referral and I can’t take anymore I hate my life and this feels like the final straw, please don’t say Ss will help, they don’t I’ve had them involved before and all they did was judge me and treat me like scum, I literally hate this life not looking for sympathy I’m sure I will be ripped to shreds but I had to get this out somewhere