Hi all ,
long story short I have 2 DD’s (9 and 6) and a 2mo DS. I have a partner (both DDS from my previous relationship) who works 2 long hour jobs. One being a night shift and the other a day job. So as you can imagine my days are long and lonely once DDs are at school. Last night eldest DD had a melt down to DP, kicking and screaming at him which then broke out into an argument between the two of us. Eldest daughter still crying and screaming and DS crying was going right through me who had been crying on and off all day, I reached breaking point and had some sort of breakdown unable to cope with my emotions , self harmed and felt this overwhelming urge to run out of the house and leave.
little things have probably pushed me to this point as DS isn’t a very content / happy baby and cries lots since first jabs last Fri… lack of sleep and support, eldest DD behaviour and acting up, youngest DD not getting enough attention from me due to the other 2 and their different needs etc .
i just physically cannot cope and found myself last night googling things I never thought I’d look at like “can SS voluntary take my children if I ask?” I’m at such a low point here, I don’t know what to do or who to contact and what would happen if I did contact SS to tell them I can’t cope… it’s all too much for me atm.
lastly I do have mh problems and under perinatal mht due to long standing depression, anxiety and bpd so mh isn’t a new thing for me. Please tell me this gets better….