We planned baby two soon after my first and there 19 months between them. My first had birth injuries and we both struggled those first couple of months. He had been delayed with milestones but seem to have caught up by his 9 month check. Second baby seemed possible, my mum lived round the corner and was going to be around to help every day. Fast forward to have baby 2 via c section my mum got diagnosed with cancer in her first week then a family member very close to me and same age died in horrific circumstances. I really struggled again with my mental health and my support wasn’t there when my husband was working.
I feel like for 6 months I was trapped with so much anger and sadness that I switched off and met basic needs. My toddler got loads of tv time and it became just his day to day. I struggled to get out with both of them without support and with it being winter I felt very limited.
I’ve gone back to work and got a bit more focus. Mum got the all clear, baby is more manageable but now I am see that he isn’t speaking anymore and less responsive. I don’t know if I have damaged his brain with all the days of screen time 😢
Ive took it all away now and when im there its interact interact interact. Ive also paid privately for surgery to have his tongue divided as he had a severe tongue tie. I am trying everything. He’s enrolled at nursery 2 days a week and I am waiting another month before paying for a speech therapist.
I don’t know what else I can do. I feel so guilty everytime I look at him and the last 6 months.
i guess I’m trying to find someone that has similar experiences.
TIA