I'm not cut out for this.

[OneWiseBlueSheep]

I've had a little boy home with chicken pox for over a week, he's usually in FT childcare. For context I am autistic and have Complex post traumatic stress disorder, following DS's entry into this world, which left me broken mentally for over a year. I am fine for about an 3 hours in the morning and the stresses throughout the day get too much, I end up at breaking point, not in the room, disassociating, mentally checked out, snappy and unpleasant to be around. I honestly am asking myself why I put my husband through this? Why did I bring a helpless, innocent into this world when he has to be subjected to me?

He’s only going to have CP once (probably) and it won’t last much longer. You should see GP / HV if feeling depressed / struggling.

You can still get him out in the buggy. No shops or parks but still a decent walk. Do you both good.

thanks, I've been in and out of therapy for most of my life though and medication doesn't work :/ I wouldn't dare tell a HV about my conditions tbh

cheers

How about the GP then? Also not sure where you are but are there any parenting support groups near you? My friend volunteers for one as she massively struggled when hers were young.

I've told the GP before and I'm on the waiting list for an extreme trauma therapy but it's over a year on the waiting list. I can't go to parenting groups as they operate during my work hours