On a 1 week all inclusive holiday in Spain with DH, and 2DC 4 &2. First holiday since oldest child was born. We’ve never been away as a 4. It cost us £3k. That’s a lot of money for us and could only happen because a close relative of mine passed away and left me some money.
We arrived today and already I am just riddled with anxiety. A woman at the pool bar told us sunbeds are a nightmare and you have to be that person up at 8am to get your towel out. She also told us we should be in the queue for dinner by 7….weird to queue but we figured we’d take her advice and see how it all worked. People queue outside the restaurant and then once at your table it’s a queue for food.
All of this just gives me crippling anxiety. I don’t want to be on high alert all the time about when/the operational strategy to feed my children. I don’t want to be up to fight for a sunbed but we need just 1 for a base for towels, suncream, food etc. Sleeping arrangements are going to be tricky as the lounge area 4 year old is in is quite bright (we bought black out blinds but the room has 4 windows!) so I don’t think my husband and I will have any alone time as we will co sleep with her in the main bedroom (really dark) and then the 2 year old is in there in travel cot. Scared one will wake the other! I’ll then have to tackle the co-sleeping routine back at home as 4yr old normally sleeps alone.
I don’t want to sound spoilt, but maybe I’ve built this holiday up into something it’s not guna be. Just feel sad about it all. Maybe because the money is associated with someone I miss and feel I need to get as much as a I can out of the gift. We won’t go away again next year because of cost.
Am I just a spoilt brat/gone loco? Why am I so anxious about all this stuff?!