Need advice. I have had an extremely hard 2 years, my best friend took her own life 2 years ago, my sister took her own life 9 years ago, I care for her children. My marriage broke down after 14 years. I caught him cheating throughout but tried to make it work. It got extremely physical, volatile etc. Just not the person I married. I didn't even recognise ise this man anymore. Anyway I'm currently getting divorced-thats fun. We have a beautiful wee boy and daughter together and he has applied to the court for contact. This has never been an issue as I have always facilitated contact as I feel it's important for our children. This year was my first year away from him and I booked a holiday for myself and the kids. However he wouldn't sign the consent form for the holiday. He did initially but then when the passport office rang he said he didn't give his consent. Now the kids can't go because I have to resubmit a consent form and it will take weeks. We are due to fly in 4 days. I've done everything humanly possible to try and resolve this issue. Police, solicitors, welfare, politicians. Everything tk try and get the passports but it's not happening. Now my kids who I have fought tooth and nail to provide for on my own and treat to a beautiful holiday are not going to get.
I can't change the dates, I will have to pay 2000 to cancel and the only thing I can do is to use travel insurance to claim back money for no shows.
My mum thinks I need the break just because I haven't done anything for myself in a long time and I should go with a friend while she watches the kids. However I feel like such a horrible mum not being able to take the kids when that was the whole point.of the holiday.
Do I go and get some well needed headspace and reset or do I stay and just let the money go to waste. I'm soo torn :( and I feel soo selfish for even thinking about going without them. But I know I'd be a better person and mum if I had a bit of a break