Ttc baby no2 postpartum depression

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We have a 18month old, we conceived naturally after 5 years, multiple fertility tests/medicines and next step was IVF. We also had multiple losses, including my daughter at 4months pregnant, so our LG is so loved and very much wanted but looking back I think I had PPD. I struggled to bond with her (difficult labour/didn’t hold her for first few hours) and I was constantly on edge that I would lose her. Overall, she was great, struggled was severe reflux, congestion etc but was a healthy baby, but I remember getting stressed and putting too much pressure on my self and getting angry that I had to cancel plans, late to baby groups, dog got less walks and attention. Did this make me a bad mom?

what happens if it happens again, what happens if I can’t cope with 2 children, or share my attention?

is it selfish to want another baby?

Every baby is different. And the experience you have with first is unique… with number 2 you might cancel plans and you won’t feel guilty, then other times your super organised and can do way more, but best part of number 2 is less pressure on yourself. You will be more confident and self assured but you will always be mum guilted at some point, it’s what makes you a good mum, you always think you should be better.

And your love and attention doesn’t get shared, your have double the love…. Not including the love that you will see watching them as siblings, they protect each other, play, argue, but it’s awesome to watch x