I don't love my son

[Iknowitsnotnormal]

I just don't. He's 3.

I don't have the same instinct for him as I do my other child. I'm past caring if he has yet another hissy fit. I've never felt that strongly about him. Could be to do with his difficult birth.

It's not his fault, I know that. I'm not mean to him. In fact, I'm affectionate and give him lots of my time but he probably still senses his mother doesn't love him.

I don't know what to do about it. I think it just feels good to let it out instead of pretending to be the all loving mother. I can't be the only one. It's not a good thing I know. My DH is gutted about it.

So sorry to here how you are feeling. There is an organisation called Birth Crisis that offers counselling/listening over the phone for those who have had a traumatic delivery. It can help mother's come to term with their delivery and move on as a traumatic delivery can often affect the bond between mother and child.

www.sheilakitzinger.com/BirthCrisis.htm

Good luck this afternoon. For what it's worth, I tried all the lowkey suggestions like 'try to think about it differently' 'don't beat yourself up with guilt' 'spend lots of time with her' and none of it worked. I would urge you not to be fobbed off and try to get something concrete by way of treatment. Good luck, and thinking of you.

(Think I meant to post on your other thread about this.)

Iknowitsnotnormal -how are you?it took a greta depth of courage to write your post, and share very harrowing feelings. Deep breath well done

please see your gp, if you feel unable to talk or a bit scared take this thread Op. or write thing down

you must feel very scared and a bit overwhelmed. DH too, also scared, confused, gutted

take time to talk, talk and talk more. be candid let it out. seek the help that is available

there are options available eg CMHT Community Mental Health team are MDT of nurses, CPN, SW, Occupational therapists, psychiatrist skilled and experieneced in mental health difficulties

mental health is treatable and with the right intervention you can recover. it wont happen immediately, but steady incremental progress to recovery

Good luck